To welcome the unknown

To welcome the unknown

In my paintings, I find myself often in the midst of the uncontrollable: I hang the unknown.

It may sound unprofessional to say it, but often I have no idea what I’m doing or where I am going with my work. It is often quite uncomfortable. But believe it or not, this is exactly what I want to achieve! Because I have the experience that it is precisely in this unknown that the magic comes in! It creeps into my process and into the paintings. There is no other way that I can invite the magic! Believe me, I’ve tried!

My way of dealing with this unknown, which is often unpleasant for a control freak like me, is that in brief moments I relax and let everything just be, just for a fraction of a moment. Anything that comes up, thoughts of doubt about the painting I’m working with, lack of confidence in my ability make something out of it, and all the crazy and unpredictable thoughts and feelings, I let them be in small moments of ”letting go”.

In this seemingly insignificant action, I find something invaluable. I find the part of me that is always calm and stable. There I rest while the storm is raging, and use the energy for painting. There the meeting with the unknown becomes manageable somehow, almost beautiful!

with much warmth,